I will be the first to admit, I am not perfect. Often times, I try to do too many things at once and tend to leave something or someone out. Its a fault of mine. I'm always wanting to help or do more. Michael has helped me to realize this. I'm so busy helping others that I tend to put the ones that matter the most on the back burner. Don't get me wrong, the kids have never gone without but Michael has. Since he can "fend" for himself, I've been letting him do so at times. For this, I am ashamed. I feel awful. How could I do this to him? As his wife how could I put the one who works hard for my family, who is the father of our children, on the back burner. How could I NOT make sure his needs are met? After beating myself up over this, I realized I shouldn't. I realized that this should be a learning experience for me. I'm learning how to say "no". I'm learning that I do not always have to help. I'm learning to think before I speak and I'm learning how to let my actions speak for themselves. I think Michael has noticed a difference. I think I'm getting back on the right track. I think that I'm pretty darn lucky to have a husband that has helped me to learn who I need to be. Who I WANT to be.
Michael was out one evening working his horse when I snapped this photo.
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